kindaichi's DISCOVERIES

2008-03-06T14:43:00.000-08:00

After 3 months of waiting, our A’ level results will soon be out tomorrow. Yeah, on the 7 march 2008. This time round, it shall really mark an end to our 2 years in college and the start of our new lives..the girls to their universities while the guys go bald for 2 years.

I am really anxious over my results because this slip of paper which I will be receiving tomorrow will determine my life to a great extent. Right now I think all I have to worry about is my GP and nothing else. Anyway I’ll just cross my fingers and see what happens tomorrow.

What shall I do if I fail GP and cannot get a place in our local universities?

2007-12-31T00:46:00.000-08:00

A sense of regretfulness, a sense of relief.
I have just quitted my current job as a sales exec. It was a fun job, but I started to feel that the timing was not as good as I had expected. Argh..i miss my friends there now.
Anyway, I have just begun my job hunting again. By the way, I went to Kelly Ex. in toa payoh a few weeks ago. Guess what? I was extremely impressed by them. When I walked into the office, no one bothered to come up to me to ask whether I, a stranger over there, needed help. I thought it was perhaps that they were busy (which was not true at all as I could see a few people in the office talking to one another), so I walked further in and intentionally dabbled with their stuff so as to get some attention. Only when I did so, did one of the people came over to serve me. Alright, this is not yet the bad part. I managed to get a form from them and finally got to fill it up, then I passed it to one of the consultants. I started to wait…and wait….and WAIT….AND WAIT…AND WAIT! How long did it take?? One hour. And that is not without taking into account that I had to ask them about my application for a job by Kelly.. Amazingly, when I asked about my application, THEY COULD NOT FIND MY APPLICATION FORM. This is within the mere one hour I had submitted it and right in the presence of me. I really have nothing to say about them. Until now, I have yet to receive any calls from them about any jobs. Now you should be the one who is commenting on Kelly services.
Hmm, I feel my brains degenerating without school now. And I’m so bored!!! Life presents me no challenge now..
By the way, i am thinking of changing over to another blog, because I want to have some new stuff out for this new year. This is also to make it more refreshing for the others. And I wanna have a new start. But this is not yet confirmed. So I’ll just state it on this blog if I am doing so.
Tomorrow is the start of a new school term, yeah!! But I’m not in school..:p

2007-12-23T22:49:00.000-08:00

Well, I am finally back! Sorry, because I really could not find any time. Recently, I have been around the town looking for a job, and fortunately, I have gotten one. They call it the sales executive (sounds nice eh??), but the pay isn't that great as you think that would be on par with the name. However i think the job scope is rather exciting, coz there's really lots of interaction going on during the work, and perhaps I may go back to my college again!! Hmm, i'll be going for 3 days of training before i start work, so it wont be so bad when i start.

Recently, or nearing one month ago i received a birthday present from my classmates ~ Sun Tze Bing Fa. Dun undermine their intentions; i requested such a present, that's why. Sadly, I didn't get to see all the presentors for the last time, but anyway I got both of them each a present as well.

(BTW the pic is my CJ one, not SA)

2007-12-10T23:02:00.000-08:00

Finally finished my contract job..really hate that job man.
Keep facing the phone the whole day.
The first day was screwed. The data i had entered into the computer was not saved (a bad habit of mine). I didn't realise that the computer switch was below the desk, and while i was stretching my legs, i kicked the switch off..at the same time kicking the data away. GG
Anyway it's a lesson learnt man. Just look on to the net job

2007-12-10T22:50:00.000-08:00

The monster has been slain..yeah!! Of course, I was referring to the A levels. Not in a very efficient and victorious way, but blissfully dead and rotting in the grave..hahahaha

Goodbye A levels, good riddance. Hopefully, I’ll never see you again.

I really hope that I wont fail my General Paper.. This time round I tried a completely different style of writing in my essay and I dun really know whether it works in helping me to clinch an A. You see, this time round, My GP grade hinges around a line, beyond which it is either I pass or fail, since my usual GP grades are E. Mrs Muru told me that I have the ability to pass, but I still doubt myself, because I think the C grade, which is my best grade I have ever gotten in college, was merely by luck. Furthermore that essay was on economics, which was something I am rather confident with.. Anyway, really hope that I pass, because it ultimately determines whether I go to my faculty of interest or some lousy one.

I am rather confident of my Math, chemistry and bio papers, now I am worried only about the performance of the national cohort. But no point worrying about it now, yeah I know.. I shall cross my fingers.

I am hearing from more and more people that they wanna go to the faculty which I am aiming for, and this is scary. That faculty takes in only 250 people every year. We have yet to consider the people from RJ and Hwa Chong.. But some of them only started aiming for it when the exams are near, which may mean futile effort for them at the end of the day because it really requires hard work, perseverance and determination, unless they are very smart, like most Rafflesians.lolz.

Recently I went to sign up as a relief teacher..i wonder who’s gonna hire me. I miss school.. haha..no no. I dun mean the studies, but the people around me.

In 4 months time I’ll be enlisting to school 1 and yet I have not started training.. I think soon everyone will see my picture on the newspaper, entitled ‘First NS men to die because of lack of training’. Dun laugh at me when that happens. I am just weak..and I dun noe why they give me PES A.

Next, exzekiel and I initially wanted to organize a t19 outing, after such a long time of not gathering, but because the response was bad, much due to our inability to reach them appropriately, we decided to cancel it. The decision was further cemented when Ezekiel was outraged by the fact that no one told him that one of the classmate in t19 was hospitalized. He seemed to be very convinced by this that most of the t19 people has forgotten us and given up on us as a friend. Well, I tried to convince him of the opposite, that the four of us had given up on them in the first place when we left them, but to no avail..

Alright, end of all this trivial stuff. I think most friendships are transient, as some of you might have read in the newspaper that friendships are usually forged under difficult circumstances.

2007-11-19T23:52:00.000-08:00

One More paper left!!!
After thursday, I will be absolutely FREE.
And I gonna Go on a rampage on the things i have been wanting to do...
with no regrets..with no hesitation..with no mercy.

:)

2007-11-10T15:55:00.000-08:00

Today I had my farewell assembly.
We sang our college hymn and college song, which is of great significance to me as a 12 year Saint. Today would be our very, very last time in our lifetime in singing them together. Being the last time for the J2 batch to mass gather for assembly, everyone jacked up the atmosphere. One could easily hear the National Anthem, college song and hymns being sung with much gusto, apparently contradictory to the usual. Though it was a scene of smiles and elation, much due to the fact that we will be going on to the next stage of our lives, I felt really unwilling to leave the college, because it means that I am no longer going to be the kid as in the past. No one to watch over me, and the loss of an environment in which you have people you can trust to a great extent.

I am so afraid of what will be going on in the future, because everything is so unpredictable. For a moment, I think the greatest fear on earth is not our childhood ghost, household roaches, domineering people or anything else, but it is our ignorance of the future and our inability to unfold the future events.

My principal, who is going to retire at the end of this year, told us that we must be ready to face up to the problems which may bring us “pain” in the future adds on to worries.

I don’t wanna leave, coz I hate the changes in life. But like what Mr Lim said, change is the only thing constant in life.

I will miss the innocent school days and my classmates and my friends I had made in the past 12 years. I will not forget the great things that happened, and the lessons I have learnt in the past.

Mr Lim will also be leaving SAJC at the end of this year to other college. I wish him all the best for his future career. I hope that he would forgive me for any insolence towards him in the past one and a half years and embarrassing him in lectures.

Yeah, I will miss the tutors also..Mr Lim D.S., Mr Tan H.C., Ms K. de Silva, Ms Ye M.X., Mr Ho, Mrs Muru, Mr Fang (affectionately known as Fungus), Ms Choo. All of you here have helped me and my classmates a lot and without loss of patience. Believe me, though most of you were as new as a teacher as we are as a college student, all of you were great, because all of you do have high hopes on us and have left a legacy imprinted deep in our minds. Here, I promise that I will do my best for As’ and will not disappoint all of you.

I will face up to the future challenges and rise up against the odds.

Nothing shall falter me.

Listening to 千里之外 by Jay Chou now. It is really making me feel emotional badly.

2007-10-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

Everyone in my class and the school are working really hard now. It is really an amazing sight. Once you step into the library you would at once see that the numerous tables in the library has been taken up, and that everyone seems to be having some serious business in studying. Also, there is a sudden rise in the number of people becoming sick at this point in time and are spending largely their time at home.

I got back my prelim results already and they are, as expected, bad. I managed to get the one and only usual A for my maths. The rest are Bs and Es. It is a bad omen..

2007-09-24T01:19:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Prelims are over already, finally! Phew!

I got back some of my results right after prelims and the results are not up to my expectations, though people around me said that it is good enough that i have done my best. My point of view is that, no matter how much effort I have put in, it makes no difference if I am still unable to make it into my faculty of interest.

Though i have gotten an A for maths, it is not a good one. Tan told us not to be complacent even if we get an A, coz we may fall back to a lower grade anytime. Chem was really surprising for me, coz i did not expect myself to get a B, but instead a C or D. This is because i did not put in the same effort as i had in BT2.

Next is a really depressing result.. I got an S for GP.. How on earth did that happen? It is like, can you imagine that your very first failure in the college papers to occur in your prelims instead of other normal exams??

I gonna take my last paper for bio and econs soon this week. I think this week will be a depressing one.

37 days to As..

I can feel those breaths of insecurity and fear lingering around me.

2007-08-30T20:12:00.000-07:00

I am halfway through my prelims, so i dun really know why i am typing in my blog now, especially when i have one and half inch thick of bio notes to memorize in one week..

Striaght As in out of reach..lolx

Yesterday i went with my sec 4 classmates to SAS to visit our teachers. I saw several of my ex-classmates who are no longer in the sa..never change much leh..hehe

However our secondary school really enderwent much changes, as in renovations. We found out that one of the corridors was actually sealed up and that area was used to extend the staffroom.

Btw, we went into the staffrooms and we found out many amusing facts. Students should really check out the staffrooms after they have left their schools..haha

One thing i feel sad about is that SAS is becoming increasingly a school of gangsters..I see students walking around with their mouth pierced, and the things i saw in the staffrooms.. This is regretful. Do people still recall the very old days when SAS was still in the top 50 rankings? Where is SAS now??

I feel we have lost it forever somehow..

My opinion is that SAS should abolish its affiliation system, so that rubbish can be filtered out. Only then do i see better changes. Not that i am a student with good grades, but i made it in through merit and not relying on affiliation.

If I am a parent, I would not send my son to SAS anymore liao. Perhaps SJI would be a better option as a school with high value add.

Back to my class..

Then my classmates went for lunch. I didn't go with them, coz i had something on at home.

Haiz.. after writing this entry i would have to go back to my stack of notes, and face so many and more uncertainties at home..this thought is really depressing.

(Please note that the above is only opinions and should not be taken too seriously.)

2007-08-07T21:01:00.000-07:00

I am feeling so overwhelmed by my thoughts now. And this is bad, because this is really distracting me from my studies for my prelims, for which everyone is counting down now to. I cant seem to get them out of my head and it is having a derogatory effect on me. Thinking about how i gonna screw up my prelims is really scary. I really have to score straight As this time, which is impossible looking at my current state. AAAhhhh...help me!

I am finding myself being unable to organize my work. Oh my, what is happening to me??

I was looking at my first three months class blog, yup, t19. Everything really gets emotional when you look at the pictures of the past while listening to emo songs. HAha..I miss those times back in Cj.. They were so diferent from my situation now and i do not understand why. I was so much happier when i was studying with my Cj classmates, attending lectures, tutorials, outings, the times on the stage, holding the air rifle and trying hard to get my bull's eye, understanding my coach's sayings, listening to Bro Paul..

What have i done during my past one and a half years in SA? Just a mundane lifestyle and an anti-social behaviour. Moreover, and i dun noe why, I seem to keep pissing off the people in my class now and then with my sarcastic remarks, or remaining rather unresponsive to what is happening around me. Haha.. s20, sometimes i dun really mean it, but i just cant control myself.

Maybe it has got to do with my overdriven dreams now, of that faculty of interest.

Haiz.. 4 more months to my susceptibility to NS. Pray for me that i will not die halfway. And pls, no commando for any reason. :)

2007-07-25T18:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah, more than 1 month of not updating.

You see, there were several events that required much of my attention, and so i had no time to return to blogging. Finally, I am back here.

First thing first,, my block test is over.. like 3 weeks ago. My final grades are really bad. I lost my only A for maths too. Shit. I only managed to score 66 points, which means that i am more than 10 points away from my faculty of interest. I bet i wont be able to get in liao, considering that i have only less than 4 months to increase that 10 points. It is time for me to consider second choices.

Next, my phone got confiscated by some Da4 Pai2 in our school, whom just seem not to do anything for the school but just trying to behave like a good disciplinarian. She is that K tutor (I am respectful enough to call this 'still-on-the-shelf' lady a tutor), yup, the one you know.. Right, i will call Ms K.

I was in the com lab, doing the learning festival thingy. Having sat on my seat for quite a long time, I decided to shift my handphone from the right side pocket to the left side pocket. At this time, this Ms K just happen to see my hand on the phone. So she strode over to me and started to interrogate me. What did she ask me? She questioned whether i knew about the fact that we cant use a phone in the library. While i said no,, she did not accept that. For goodness sake, if she doesn't believe why did she ask in the first place?? ... ... (wont dwell on the convo liao)

Ended up my phone got into her hands.

When i went to see my Civics tutor to get back my phone, Sir gave me an excerpt of her side of her story. According to her, I was "blatantly" messaging on my phone. Yet, at that point in time when i was touching my phone i did not even press any button. Furthermore my eyes were on the screen. How was i supposed to "blatantly" message in her presence? I was exceptionally appalled when i heard that. This is because initially, i thought that this Ms K was notoriously well-spoken of among the students just because she is a strict disciplinarian. That in the course of making students to comply to the school rules, she willingly sacrificed her reputation. For that i was very prepared to respect her in spite of the various things others may say. I understand that we should never listen just to gossips.

But I was wrong.

What she had done is something really to be condemned. As a staff in SAJC, i would have expected her, especially when she goes around "correcting" others, to comply to the core values of SAJC. Integrity, Responsibility, Respect, Compassion and Perseverance. What has she done? She changed the entire story that no longer held the truth just to put me in a bad light and her in a good light. Where is the integrity in her?

Now, I definitiely know that she is one who would back-stab you. By saying that my actions were blatant, she meant that there was defiance in me when touched my phone. The question is, did i? It was not the exact case. Anyway, her response to this explains the gossips behind her in our study area.

Perhaps she had assumed that i wanted to use the phone. That is the only explanation i can put up for her defense. However, can she make use of her brains for once? Which student will be so dumb as to blatantly message right in front of her?

All i can say now that such a staff in SA will only contribute nothing much but only to make life bad during schooling. Student welfare? Nothing with her around.

By the way, yesterday, I was walking pass the benches outside the staffroom when I saw that spinster. On the table at which she was sitting, there laid something.

Guess what? It is a phone.

Hmmm.. I THINK SHE WAS BLATANLY USING HER PHONE.

2007-05-29T22:18:00.000-07:00

Doctor Kindaichi is BACK :)

After about 2 weeks of rest after my SPA, i feel much better now. Haha..gonna start mugging like shit already.. have to get into my dream school. (I wont be saying anything about where I wish to go, coz that dream of mine is a bit too far based on my current results. lol)

Block test 2 is coming, before my prelims and then my A levels arrive. This is scary, but definitely not for those who are well-prepared..that is self-explanatory.

Yesterday went to NUS for some stats camp to prepare for some maths competition. Before that I thought XZ would be there because she was signing for this camp thingy tat day. It turned out that she did not do so and only the other 2 of her friends in her clique. So disappointing. Haha. But do take note that I did not go for camp juz because of her. I still have my pride. Haha. Dun forget, I would go for fights that I am confident of winning..lolx. If otherwise, it would be because of other factors like yi qi (as YK always says..) Tat is why I signed up for that stupid RJ china chess comp. Look, this is like something confirmed to be lost. Me going there is like walking into a lion’s den to await for slaughter.. Noe why I am still going? Coz Yk wants to add something else as a variety inside his SGC. So actually I will be going there as a full-time joker and a cheerleader. lol

Omg, I remember that I have SMO this Wednesday! I haven study for it.. But nvmind lahz..it is just a competition. Yet, dun worry bout me, I will still do my best. Hopefully I’ll get at least a bronze for this.

Btw, do forgive my slipshod language in this entry as I do not feel like writing it well. I just do not understand why.
Also, it was so unoriginal of me to use the name in the head of this entry as my classmates have used that as my nick. However, I thought it would be more meaningful

2007-05-25T16:00:00.000-07:00

2 weeks have past since I updated, and yup, many things happened.

I went for the American Maths Competition (cant remember when..). Oh man.. the questions are, well, for Singaporeans to laugh at(I am just quoting what my C.T. said). Yeah, the word is simple. However I have to admit that the questions do get tougher as I progressed. My final verdict: Those organisers have actually made it easy at the starting part. They do have the mathematical intelligence. (Note that i am not saying that my maths is far better than them, but it is juz that it fell below the high expectations i have for AMC)

Next, my school held a Singapore Mathematical Olympiad selection test, and of course, I went for it. Fortunately, I made it through this round. This is really amazing for me, comsidering that I am right now afraid of selection tests after failing every one of the tests last year in college. Anyway, I attended the first training of the 10 trainings provided and haha, I was really stunned throughout the entire lesson. I do understand the concepts, but I was unable to apply them to the questions. My lecturer gave us a list of 24 questions and asked us to complete them as homework and present them in the next lesson(which I do not know when as yet). 2 weeks have past but the questions are still unanswered. Think I shall try afterwards.

Recently, my Civics tutor gave us the reply for the request to change our GP tutor. Personally i think that this request is reasonable, considering how slack our GP tutor is and how ineffective her lesson is. Well, the reply was, as many would have expected, a no. whatever the reason is it was not stated. My C.T. gave the opinion that the main problem is that we are just too used to the previous tutor(Mr Fang) and just resistant to changes. I disagree to a great extent, in fact, not an inch of agreement. Just take a look at last year. Our Economics tutors. How many times did we change our tutor? 2 times. We had to to "adapt" to 2 new faces within a year, yet we did not complain a bit. No, this is not a case of whether the subject is of great importance. Both the GP and econs are H1 level. A case of racism? No. If so we would have complained against our Biology tutor(she is a Malaysian). To further substantiate, we had a change of PE teachers also. So come on, what do you think is the problem right now?

Yesterday our lessons were disrupted twice because of an unfortunate earthquake which took place in West Sumatra. We were evacuated to the open field of our running tracks. Through this event, I realized how practical my principal was. Lolx.. during the first evacuation, we were allowed to stand near the grandstand, which is against the rules as it remains dangerous for us to stay there. During the second evacuation, we were accompanied by the media. This time, our principal decided to shift us out to the open field instead. Get what I am saying? I am not stating it here as I may get chased after for such a comment. However I cant keep complaining about the school staff. They were, anyway, confident of the school building (just as I am) and considering the welfare of the students, as it was a hot and sunny day yesterday.

Last week the A level was released. And yup, my chinese results also. I scored an A for overall Chinese and distinction for the oral and aural. To me it is just another amazing thing. I thought I had screwed up the oral and that it would pull down my marks, but the opposite happened.

All right, I shall end here now. I gotta rush off to Malaysia now to settle my family matters. It is already late in the afternoon. Guess I would reach home today at 2am plus. Oh man, another day of dark circles.

2007-05-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

Biology and chemistry spa is finally over. Yeah!
This is like after days of memorising pages and pages of practicals, with different variations.
Bio was the worst, we had to finish writing our bio report of 8 pages within a time limit of 1 hour. How crazy it that? It is almist writing in an inhuman speed...
Surprisingly, I managed to complete it.
Well, enough of said. Feeling so hungry now, think i just go to the cafe and grab some food before econs.
Meanwhile, i shall take a rest from my studies. Those SPA thingy is haunting to the extent of my dreams.. Aaaaaarrrrrggggg

2007-05-04T00:45:00.000-07:00

Well, at least SAJC is not really a school of "no-response"..

I think while we keep criticising a person, we should, at the same time, look at the better side of things. There is always a brighter side to all the things in life. Trust me, I have found it in my school.

Today our principal gave us (the J2s) a talk about our block test results and some of her projections that she had made based on the results of past years' BT , prelims and A levels. Then she showed us the maximum and the minimum entry scores of the students of our college for NUS, NTU and SMU. What i could say that it jolted people, who were still sleeping in their world of fantasy that their world will always be provided for and looked after for, that our current results were not good enough for University admission.

Ww were then asked to proceed to our homeroom to have a talk with our civics tutor and other of our tutors. Mrs Muru and jerry Chua was there too with Mr Lim. Hopefully the students would do something about their results after this.

Anyway, our school have done a great deal for us students and for me in particular the TMP which the teachers have organised, hoping to nurture more local scholars from our school. I suppose it is really time for us to start pushing our pens and racking our brains.

Okie, high time for me to stop typing. Gonna go for my SMO now and perhaps go down and see for my tutors who are meeting the students' parents.

2007-05-03T01:30:00.000-07:00

What is a diary?

I would say that a diary is a book or any thing which allows you to write about the events that are happening to you, about the emotions in you when events occur, your thoughts or anything. I think, as long as it is ethical, does not go against the morals, it is worth an entry into your little personal book.

Then, what is "e-diary"?

It is no different from our traditional paper diary; it is just stored in the form of electronic form. We call it the weblog, aka blog. We keep it out of the eyes of the people whom we want privacy from by not telling them our blog address, just as how we lock our diary.

It is often kept in privacy and out of other people's eyes by securing it with a lock and after writing your entry into the diary, you would perhaps leave your diary on your desk or anywhere you know - you trust that no one would come over and break your lock and read into your diary. This is because there exist a trust for the people around you that they will not disrespect the area of freedom you were born with, that no one will read your diary.

Unfortunately, there are still people who do so.

That is what is happening in SAJC. We students post our encounters, feelings and thoughts into our online diary (the students' blogs) and those technical experts just want to let us have a taste of how smart they are. What do they do? They break our lock and start reading into our online diary, hoping to ensure that we students do not hang the dirty linen of the school in the public.

Haven't they realize that it was our intention that no one was supposed to read the blog other than those whom we give our blog address to? Yeah, people query what kind of privacy you are talking about when you decide to post your entries to the public. Yet, it was within our expectations that those smart people would know that now, in the new age of technology, our lock for the "e-diary" exist as an address?

Sadly, these inquisitive people just want to have it their way. They search around the blogging websites for your name, then they find out about your blog address (which you had intended to keep it private to them) and start prowling about into your life. Then, when they found out that you had said something unpleasant about SAJC, they start to "TALK" about you.

How different is this from the breaking of a person's lock for his diary and reading about his entries?

Well, if a person has really not committed any bad or disgraceful things, he should not be afraid that people are writing about him.

2007-02-15T23:35:00.000-08:00

LOLx.. I find myself such a joker. I was moving across blogs through my friends’ and I happened to stump upon my eye candy’s blog. Look, I was supposed to be looking at the list of scholarships offered in Singapore (my school encouraged us to take up one, u see). I ended up reading her entire blog for 5 hours. I ended up not finding out anything about scholarships. Dots..

2007-02-09T23:36:00.000-08:00

Time really pass very fast. It is already near mid February now, which means around 7 months more to my A levels. I am afraid for my exams because I seemed to start burning out this year. This can be seen in my scores for all of my tests this year. Mediocre ones. Lolx.. I have learnt something after past 4 years: I can only focus for a year on studies the longest. Now, this phenomenon is repeating, same as my O levels.

Last month I juz received the Mindef letter. I dun noe whether it is their system conked out or what, they are right now trying to enlist me after I registered my particulars with them. They crazy or what...I dun wanna get dragged out of the exam hall when I am taking my A levels juz because i did not comply to their enlistment. My classmate who is also born in the same month as me have not even got his letter yet.

Recently I juz went to take IQ test. My results was very shocking..

2006-12-25T20:48:00.000-08:00

Recently, I overheard a conversation between these 2 people. It goes something like this:

A: So Chris, where does your sister study?
B: Well Eze****, she studied in “this and that” JC, and now she is heading on to “that and this” University.
A: Wow! That is so smart of your sister, unlike “that and that” ’s sister, who is studying in a POLYTECHNIC.

What do you think of person A?
An elitist.

Yeah, I happened to know these 2 people. This person A is right now studying in Anderson JC, while the neutral person B is right now in Catholic JC. I got to know both of them, or maybe, I got to acquaint with them when I was in CJC during the first intake 2006. Why do I say acquaint?

Before this visit to this AJC guy’s house, I thought I know him quite well already. I thought of him as studious and capable. Otherwise how did he manage to score a splendid 8 points in his O levels? And perhaps, a good old modest student in front of the lecturers and tutors. But I was proven wrong after the visit. I had not yet seen the other side of him. Below this beautiful surface of him there lies a rotting carcass. I didn’t know that he is such an arrogant person. Just because he scored a 8 points and this person B, a 7 points, does not entitle him an opportunity to have a conversation to put down the others.

This tells us that not all people in good schools have great characters.
Evidently, though he has done quite well in his studies, in his English, mother tongue, maths, physics, chem., biology etc, he has failed in many other aspects. To name some, empathy, modesty. He is also rather, NOT well-read and up-to-date with the current trends. Doesn’t he know that there are people in Singapore who scored a 6 points and yet, they opt to go to a poly?

Come on, if person A is really that smart, he would have made it to Hwa chong or Raffles, and not AJC. I suggest that he work harder before he begin to analyze and comment on others. Also, read more newspapers and find out what is really happening among youths.

This is when he has not yet learnt what is modesty.

Education has past him at least 10 years, but he has failed education. Sadly.

Finally, it is scary to imagine what is going to happen when he goes out to work in the future. Will the people under him be categorized also? I believe it is going to take tremendous strength for the people to work under him.

2006-12-20T01:39:00.000-08:00

It is just a case of Lionel improving himself…

Sunday, I went to Yamaha shop to get a guitar.. Woah.. Dat was ex’ man..It cost me my year end holidays allowance. But nevertheless, I think it is still worth it.
It was raining real heavily on dat day man. I only had my bag for my guitar and had to shield it from the rainwith an umbrella only. Fortunately, it was still dry when I reached home.

School holidays ending soon liao..yet I have not done anything constructive. But..wadever.. HU cares?? :p

Wanted to go gym and build up my body, ended up sleeping more to avoid the gyms.
Wanted to go and tan myself, it kept raining and oso, well, the above reason. (and no sun to tan even)
Hehe..but I managed to change my oldie specs. It broke while I was wiping it. So no choice..

Well, dat’s all I did in the holidays. Fill up the other days with sleep, and dat completes my holiday schedule. No life.

Yeah, but of course, I went for some outings with my ex-classmates in CJC. Jux went for curling yesterday wif Ezekiel and chris.

SAJC classmates~so few outings ..might as well say none at all. But Lyn juz organized one chalet at the beginning of the holiday. I didn’t enjoy myself much, coz I left quite early for work the next day. U noe, my fun always comes in the middle of the night.

Tomorrow is the opening of the Curse of the Golden Flower. My sec 4 classmates are asking me go along. But I have not yet decided, coz right now I dun have any specs..gonna wait till this Saturday to collect it. Cant even see anything but a blur of images..what to watch??
But maybe I juz go lahz.. hehe.. wanna see jay chou acting. His previous show, Initial D is a real plus factor. No expression yet there are emotions..fantastic.. Of course, see my friends too.

Next, there will be a sec 4 class BBQ at Mrs Low’s house. Maybe I go too.. I have not been catching up with my classmates for a long, long time.

“An artist paints on a canvas, while a musician paints on silence”.. Nice one by anonymous.. food for thoughts.

2006-11-17T00:46:00.000-08:00

Common Sense in Project: Lecture (1)

-In times of crisis, do not complain, criticize about others (group members), and sit down
to cry like a baby. No point crying and shrieking for a pacifier when it has dropped
from your mouth juz because you can’t hold it properly.
-Instead use the time to salvage the situation. Your brains are there for a reason.
Otherwise bury it. Your seemed-to-be-useless brain would be taking up too much space.

If the above are just too difficult for you, do not have to panic. The sky has yet to fall. What should you do?
1) Take a piece of 3m rope.
2) Tie a loop around your neck with one end of it. Ensure it does not slip off easily.
3) Tie the other end of it to a piece of heavy rock
4) Sail out to the middle of the ocean and throw both you and the rock into the water.
5) No. I think you do it in the Kallang river instead. Dun dirty the water with your seemed-
to-be-useless brain. The world still need its fish stock.

And finally, dun worry about the others after that. No one will miss you.

2006-11-14T01:05:00.000-08:00

i dun like this.
I get malign so many times today..
I dun really keep it in my mind if it is only once. But from my past experience in sec skool i know i should not keep quiet.
U Noe, whenever your team members make a mistake, u dun criticize too much.
Yet, i dun understand why sum ppl juz do not understand this common knowledge.
No one is perfect, everyone makes a mistake. I suppose they think that they are perfect.
Since the beginning of this year i have tried to demonstrate this theory, but they dun understand still.
Maybe i am the one who doesn't understand, that these ppl are juz too slow or sumthing like that.
sum how the idea dun get drilled into their thick skulls and skin.
They always assume that what they imagine is the reality.
that their realm of fantasy is always part of the reality.
so that all of us are dust and shit, while they are GODS.
So they dun really have to listen to anybody. They teach their own great theories to themselves.

Perhaps, at this point in time, sum ppl reading this may say that i am petty or narrow-minded. "Oh, C'mon, it is juz a small matter. why put it to heart?? Relax boy"
but..does anyone know 1+1+1+1+1+1+1+1+1+1=? It equals to ten. U noe wad i mean.
Small +small+small= big.
No, i did not imagine this up, i saw this happening too many times.
Put urself in my shoes. You wont feel nothing when you are maligned.

Anyway, our team work is over already. Quite relieved, otherwise i will soon become a devil in my team. FOR NO REASON.

2006-11-07T23:59:00.001-08:00

Oral presentation is finally over. This marks the end of my PW, though I still have the file to submit next week. Anyway, this burden is finally over..

I think I had made a silly mistake juz now during OP.
I asked a question for the audience to answer, but initially I had made some arrangements for my classmates act dumb, that is, not to respond to my question.
I forgot to cover everyone.
When I asked the qn, suddenly, a hand shot up in the corner of my eyes, to my horror. This is because I did not prepare my script for such a thing to happen. No choice, I had to impromptu. I allowed my classmate to answer, and definitely I had to respond to her.

So what did I do? I gave her a reply, the best phrase in the whole wide world.

I said :”Nice try”…
Dots..
To think that I said that in front of the assessors!

Not anyone’s wrong. I dun blame my classmate, coz without the response I dun think I would have gotten any credit for awareness of audience.

If I had been a bit more composed and less panicky juz now, I could have overcome the difficulty and improved the situation. I could have explain her answer and linked it back to my point. It is gonna be very professional. But I did not do it.

Having had finished OP and now at the stage of wrapping up the stuffs, I reflected on my past year in JC. Dun noe why, I have the feeling that if I had not left CJ and gone back to SA, I think I would be happier. Coming over here, I lost so many opportunities at once.

I could have been in the CJ shooting school team. I could have completed most of my NYAA Gold activities and waiting to shake hands with the Republic President next year. I could have been into A*star research. I could have gotten my H3 maths.

And I left the place for seemingly greener pastures. Whose color gradually faded as I approached them. Now I feel as if the grasses have died.

I ended up with nothing at all now.

Well, all I can say is that my social circle has expanded, nothing else..

2006-11-05T20:29:00.000-08:00

林俊杰第三张专辑《被风吹过的夏天》(歌词）

还记得昨天，那个夏天，微风吹过的一瞬间

似乎吹翻一切，只剩寂寞跟沉淀；如今风依旧在吹

秋天的雨更碎心中的热却不退

仿佛继续闭着双眼熟悉的脸又会浮现在眼前

蓝色的思念突然演变成了阳光的夏天

空气中的温暖不会很遥远，冬天也仿佛不在留恋

绿色的思念回首对我说一声四季不变

不过一起的时间又在回到从前那个被风吹过的夏天

2006-11-03T00:05:00.000-08:00

An idoit tells me: "The highest pregnancy rate comes from students of RI"..

Today had my Chinese A' level examx.Eh.. The essay part quite okay, but I was juz shocked by the questions of the essay. Dun wanna say why here, dun wanna say anything here coz it may be dangerous. (I have learnt my lesson) Haha... if you wanna noe, ask any SAjc students.

The rest should not be of a problem. Should be able to get A, unless the entire cohort is real hard core.

Nanana

Received a farewell note from one of the future retainees in my class. Hey, to this person, it is not that I want ot be insensitive to your grades, but you seemed to be so lohx. I was trying to see your reaction, whether these grades really matter to you at all...when you dun even seem sad at all with your grades.

Anyway, best of luck to you and other retainees. Work hard and cherish the next 2 years. Dun leave the school with regrets man. And dun take your classmates for granted, you may not get to be with forever, juz like now. We will be leaving each other soon...

To the retainees: i will definitely miss you all, and I believe it is the same for the the rest of 06S20! We will miss you all, and the fun moments we had together!!

Finally, Take care. We wont be there for you all next year... :(

2006-10-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

This sux..
Today, I went wif my CCA president and the teacher in charge to announce and promote a flag day we organised. Badly done, we managed to earn a few laughters from the J1 and J2 audience. My classmates told me it was the teacher's problem, for "making this funny". But i dun noe.. Is that a consolation?
Today my school held amazing race, and it was so amazing that Yann Kiat and I went missing throughout the activity. Some ppl found us in the com lab instead.
We stayed in the com lab for like entire day, playing some lame games.

2006-10-05T22:33:00.000-07:00

Promos are over liao/
I have a really bad feeling about it.. This is my analysis of my promos:
GP:
When i first saw the GP essay questions, this sense of horror gushed into my mind. Sh*t, I am going to die badly for GP. It was then I tot, hey, I still have my GP compre to rely on. Relak lah. So I went on to whack my essay...
After the Gp essay, it was my compre time. When the invigilator began the exam, I flipped over the cover page enthusiastically. That was when the sky came falling down on me.. Huh..what on earth are they toking about????
.....Dots....
Chinese:
Well, i wont say anything about this, coz it is still the same old thing. Cant be blamed lahz..never seem to fail any chinese papers before lohz.. It will be like the sun rising from the west when that day comes. But that is not sumthing to be proud of, when this is at the stake of my english stnadards

Biology:
This was my very first H2 paper i took. I could say that this is the only paper i came prepared with, or maybe the relatively well prepared one. I could not afford to disappoint Ms K.D.S. I flunked the previous test..and she told me directly that she expect better grades than that.. Unfortunately I could not complete my paper.. there was totally no time.. I left quite a few questions blank~ 3 to 4 marks ones.. haha.. Juz wish that an A juz falls straight from the sky.

Chemistry:
This was the worse. I was so pressurized when doing the paper. It was juz like a repeat of the history. I was almost guessing the answers for the entire paper coz i could not recall any thing about chem, esp organic chem. Org chem is crazy lohz..got so many conditions to remember..it is not as if I am going to graduate as a chem analyst, pls..I am definitely not coming out of U juz to end up working in Jurong Island. Like that might as well dun study. Okie, let's go back. Anyway, I think it is partly my fault, coz i did not even touch the entire chem notes the other day, rite before the chem paper. I was devoting the entire time on chem bonding, which i never failed not to understand.
I remember Mr L.D.S. talking to me rite after getting the chem results. I had scored a C, and he told me that he wasn't expecting that kind of grades from me. Okie, now I am going to deliver him maybe a C again, or a grade worse that that. I really feel bad about it man. I have been disappointing him through the tests and mid year exams. And now this.

Maths:
Okie, this paper was not as bad as so many people had made it sound like. Juz one stupid question. Asked me to find a general formula about a game, and this q is worth onli one mark. Unfortunately, u would require this answer to do the rest of the 6 marks question and they are on induction.
??????
IT NOT AS IF I DUN NOE HOW TO DO INDUCTION!!!!!!!
Why cant they juz ask us to prove.

Econs:
My very last paper for promos, which was held on this very day.
Tink data response was rather easy but juz dunno how to do one of its 2 marks questions. The second part was the essay question. I tink I flunked that part of the paper. Worth 15 marks. Dunno y I chose to do that question.. But i remember myself getting dizzy after doing the data response...perhaps I could not tink properly juz now..

Okie..wadever. Exams are over liao. Rite now i juz hope and wish that I, and maybe sum of my classmates can be promoted. Good luck to them man.

Lastly, I tink i cannot get 65 points liao. Honestly i did not put in as much effort as i had for my mid year. So, may be juz drop to sum 40 plus points..but get promoted this time happy enough for me liao.

AAAAhhhHHH...I feel so drained..no more energy liao.

next week still have to face my tutors and lecturers again liao. Dunno wad to tell them now.

And now my onli hope for 06S20's name to get 'published' on the 'Hall of Fame' will fall on my fellow classmates. Hey guys, work harder. Let's not others think that S20 is juz sum 12pointer hopeless bunch of people who cant succeed in anything. We'll push together to get at least sum one in to the top 20 of the level. I really tink u ppl can do it. It's juz not enough effort only. It's juz one more year of effort. 1 more lap to A'levels.

But I myself have no energy liao. :(

Good luck!!

2006-09-13T01:23:00.000-07:00

Promos are drawing nearer and nearer as i am typing this entry. Yeah, i am starting to feel the pressure mounting, especially when i have not been consistent in my work these few months.

Well, this shall be my last entry before my promos, which will start at 29 sept and end on the first week of october. Condemn me if i break this vow.

Received a good comment for my PW, i mean the EoM, finally..haha

Shall go back to my studies..I GONNA AIM FOR 65 POINTS!!!!!!!!

2006-09-04T00:53:00.000-07:00

Booz.. What am I doing, huhz?? Promos coming liao and i am still at my com doing rubbish.. Yet i am babbling about this dream to OWN the level..

COme on, so many scholars out dere.

Toking about tat.. an unfortunate news..

A scholar in my college juz committed suicide on monday..tink that should be the date. According to one of his friends, he actually jumped off a building. Moe decided not to release this to the public as this is not something glorious. I heard that his death was due to stress.

All the scholars were asked to be talked to the next day..

This is really tragic, and muz be really devastating to his parents. They sent him overseas to have him ended up dead. Dead in foreign countries furthermore.

His parents came over on last Wed to collect their son's body. (Tat's what i heard again)

Haiz..we have lost another talent..

This is so sudden. It suddenly dwelled in me that life is so fragile. Now u see ur friend, now u dun. U never noe when one of friends disappears from the earth. Again, i tink we should really treasure the people around us.

So ppl reading this, if one day u have any problems or feel stressed dun keep it in ur mind. Muz talk to sum one hohz.

2006-08-24T03:17:00.000-07:00

Been so busy these few days that i have totally no time to blog.
firstly it's about my F***ed up Pr*nc*pal. She really doesn't allow her words to pass through her brain first before her mouth. Her latest accusation implied that onli those high-earning professionals donated money and that they have been recognized, so they were being invited to the SAV opening ceremony this saturday.. Now, the problem is that all the SAS ppl had been donating 100bucks every year(to round down) and simple calculations tell us that it will no longer be a small amount when this is done for4 continuous years from 1000ppl(to round down again). Furthermore we students have no stable income except from our parents and it is juz a meagre sum of a few hundreds a month. How can the Pr*c*pal not acknowledge the students' contributions? Perhaps it is because the rest of the ppl are high earning professionals...

2006-08-16T02:17:00.000-07:00

This few days i have been feeling very stressed.. Well, it is over my PW.. I have this unfortunate feeling that my hopes for an A for my PW is totally over . :( Everything is so screwed up. Help me>.. i pray to myself. ><
_

2006-08-11T03:22:00.000-07:00

While Israel and Hizbollah are pumping rockets over to each other hysterically, I am rite now frantically trying to find out ways here to overcome the disastrous effects of this fight between some ******** countries over the lives of 2 soldiers and at the sake of hundreds of lives. Yeah, u’ve got it. Trying to reduce my electric and gas consumption so that I am spared from this unnecessary and redundant flying debris… haha.. I am not the only one protecting myself and hiding under the tables, but the entire world. The debris, whether u believe it or not, has been blasted off all the way from the Israel’s and Hizbollah’s borderline to every single area on earth. Not an area is being spared and warning to all of you: hide under the table now, otherwise you will end up in hospital. :-But the question I ask of u ppl now is that why does the entire earthlings have to hide like some mouse just because of some clusters of ignorant earthlings are trying to uphold their so-called pride? And over 2 earthlings?

Yah, yah.. I understand. 2 lives are still lives. And so the rest of the 900 earthlings have no lives so that they sacrifice their future for these 2 earthlings and uphold the pride the cluster of earthlings??

Okie okie..so the ignorant earthlings have lives while the entire world have no lives..

Now back to my initial point..i was trying to find out ways to protect my bills..okie.. Wad can I do?? Maybe I can try not watching TV shows for a month..no no.. That is my only indulgence..and that applies to my com too..how wad else?? Not using the lights in the nighttime?? Oh wow…I can study in the void deck rite? for the gas..not cooking at all..yeah..i can use charcoal..good idea. How about asking Israel and Hizbollah to use charcoal to propel their tankers? Shld be an extremely good idea.

Btw, does anyone realize that my problem can be easily solved if I am a rich person?? In a way that I can use my money notes in 100s of dollars to burn to cook my water, use the notes like rough paper and toilet paper and flush it down into the toilet bowl. Or maybe convert my fortune into coins and bury Isreal and Hizbollah’s arsenal so that they cant use it anymore.

2006-08-05T02:01:00.000-07:00

Great.. H3 selection test is over. My hopes are over too.. I could not do the entire half of the of the paper..but dat was because i had forgotten some formulae.. and that was the same as my second and last question.could not proceed cuz of formula again.. Y cant dey give us a list of formulae for teh test?? Dey are undermining so many talented-but-forgetful people..just like me..haha..kidding. But i am quite sure i could have finished the entire paper..

On that very same fateful day, i had my CCA Ex-Co election.. my speech was rather, relatively impressive, coz i was the only one hu prepared..the rest went up to the front of the J1s juz to stammer..haha. den followed by an interview..Me ended up as the VP of my CCA...No no, i am not sad that i am not the president..in fact the news came to me as a surprise, coz during the interview i was given a choice of Pres or V.Pres, I chose the latter and they granted my wish.

2006-08-02T02:55:00.000-07:00

The battle will be out soon again. It is on this friday. And i am nervous, because i do not tink that i am fully prepared for it. I may get slain by this battle.

People, help me!!!

I cant afford to lose this battle. It means a lot to me

The election is this friday too. Is God trying to take away some stuff from me??

2006-07-20T03:02:00.000-07:00

Why isnt there any msg ? I have been waiting for the entire day..yet my handphone did not ring..

2006-07-19T02:46:00.000-07:00

BAttle's over, as all the soldiers know.
The fight has been a tiring one, as we had to juggle between the temptation of slacking in the barracks and avoiding the rigourous training, and the actual fight with All-noe-IT.
Indeed it was so. Our generals were extremely unhappy with the results of the battle. More than half of our contingent had barely survived in this battle, and I was one of the lucky survivors as i had not been working hard too.
Yesterday, one of my Generals came to me and presented to me the most prestigious set of stuff any soldiers would have wished for ~ Nimbus 3000 Sword of Honour, together with the TI-84 Gold Edition armour and A185 Lambo Drive. He knows that it has always been my wish to lead the entire army into the battle and gaining a victory, so that I could bring glory to my contingent and to our Generals. Upon receiving them, many feelings gushed into me. Sure, i was feeling exceptionally happy having gained the ownership of all this stuff, but then again, an intense pressure laid upon my heart. I knew that having had all these, I had a greater responsibility and that the Generals would be expecting more of my current performance. I cannot afford to fail anymore.
Now, I have no more excuse but to work real hard during my training so that at the end of this year, i would gain a victory for my contingent. I cannot disappoint my Generals anymore.

2006-07-12T17:35:00.000-07:00

examz are finaly over and some of my results r out. I really screwed up this time.
Damn
My maths cant be blamed actually..
On tat day i couldnt clear my GC memory. It ended having 2 teachers, standing around me, fiddling with my GC to clear my memory. F@ck the teachers..i became so pressurized by them that i could not focus.i ended up having careless mistakes all over my script.

2006-07-12T02:49:00.000-07:00

2006-06-15T19:12:00.000-07:00

Great..
Sum updates on me..
Anyway it is just a string of bad news..but just share ..
1st: A*STAR Research Programme
me kena kicked out for no reason..well..sort of..but one WIF NO FIGHT AT ALL!!
It was like this.. I got through the very 1st hurdle which qualifies me to go for their interview by the IBMC or watever u call tat../and i was informed of this interview onli after my own interview slot..

?????????????????????? ?????????????????????

2nd: NUS Biomed QUiz

not really a bad news though.

But i am not in .. WITHOUT ANOTHER FIGHT AT ALL YET AGAIN!!!!

They chose onli those hu had 9 points in my class.. wad is this when sum ppl do not even have an A1 for bio O's?? No, I am not toking bout my classmates..

I am juz not happy wif the fact that i got kicked out of these for no reason.

If dere was a selection test and i got defeated then i would not mind at all.

Survival of the best

I would wish them all the best

But none of these happened.

But fortunately they still allow us to get in if our mid year 'shows that we r up to it'

yet wad crap is tat?/ Can thay define it lest they go back on their word??

I see no chance at all

i'll continue in the next post..all these are depressing enough

NYAA GOLD???

2006-06-07T19:52:00.000-07:00

Almost one year has passed since A's birthday. I could still remember the delirium i felt 2 days ago when she asked me to go for her b'day party. haha.. her msg just managed to light up my days during that period when i had a quarrel with someone... This princess i got to noe of in my secondary school days was sum one hard to ask out.. i was rejected many times pathetically..poor me. And out of the blue after 2 years later she finally initiated. I noe it is not something special to be asked to go for parties, but this one was not any normal one, u see. The person makes a BIG difference.

Now just 1 month short of her birthday i really hope to be invited to her party again. It's been so long since i have seen her.. But i have a feeling that this little wish of mine will not come true. Coz she seems to be avoiding me liao. I have not seen this active user of MSN online for a long time, at least half a year. I think she has blocked me liao. This is a bad feeling, was the party the last gathering with her...? If like that i shouldn't have went.

Also, did she ask me because D.M. told her to? He was also invited and perhaps he had told her to ask me and others to come along, so that he wont feel left out during the party. (Most of the ppl were from BSS, so majority come from that school). Was he the first one on her mind? Dis is a heartbreaking thought..

Meanwhile i would just save up money for her present and wait by my phone for her invitation. Tink i will get something better than the photo frame album i got for her last year.. :)

2006-05-03T02:47:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!!! After so many weeks of rubbish I can finally have my access to internet. The past few weeks have been so boring and frustrated. No internet access is really a total doomsday to me, I can finally appreciate the importance and existence of such invention. So people treasure the things around you while they are atill there, before they are taken away from you. I know it sounds so cliché, but believe me, it is true.

The past few weeks has been quite tiring but fun, endless opportunities keep coming to me..haha.. and recently I have gotten myself involved in the A*star research programme.. I still dun really know what it is about but soon will. Tink I will go into neuroscience…sounds interesting..and I am trying out for the NUS biomedical quiz..hopefully I can win something for SAJC..Dreaming..

Also, JJ Lin came to my school on 21st april for this mini concert and for his so-called promotion for Mandarin..SOUNDS so hypocritical to me.. Anyway he only sang a few songs , Cao Cao and Yuan Lai then he left..sianz..so fast.. Maybe he has such a hectic schedule that he has to leave, otherwise his opportunity cost for coming to SA will increase tremendously…haha..so economics..

Talking about econs, I am rather surprised about my results for my recent test.. I had marks lower than my expectations..sad.. but fortunately I was among the top scorers in my class, so that will make it up. Same for my maths test… among the top scorers in my class.. hopefully this will continue all the way as I pursue my studies..haha..dreaming again.. and maybe being the top few people in my class..but there are so many intellectually strong people in my class like some from Nan Hua..so it will seem to be difficult..

My PI for project work sucks.. I am handing up my first draft as the final piece of work to the Cambridge..piece of shit..and I have to hand up the first draft of the Group Project Proposal this Friday..worst is that there is seriously no time for that.. today is Wednesday, tml have to do GP.. dun noe wad to do…some more me sway sway kena group leader.. Damn.. they should know that everything under my leadership has never succeeded before..Good luck 4 myself and my group…??

2006-04-17T02:25:00.000-07:00

Yoz.. it has been ages since I updated my blog… coz my com recently down lahzz. Btw I just logged in to amend one of my errors made in the previous post.. The following : “was talking to one of my ex-classmate and this friend of mine is still so devoted to my crush…” should be written as “was talking to one of my ex-classmate and this friend of mine is still so devoted to his crush…”.. Get it?? Dat’s it for the day.. My school library is closing soon.. Gotta go!! Bye!!

2006-04-04T23:03:00.000-07:00

Hi.. It’s been a long time since I have updated this, cos this few days I have really been busy. My schedule really suck like hell.. my earliest school day is only 4.15pm, the rest of the days I have to go for CCAs… Haiz.. Btw, I was talking to one of my ex-classmate and this friend of mine is still so devoted to my crush… Some ppl will know who this person is, so I am not announcing his grand name.. Ha.. this friend of mine had even written a poem for her..too bad he didn’t have the guts to pass it to her.. Hey friend, you really have to do something if you want something to happen.. Anyway, the poem you sent to me is really a good one, so I am gonna share this with the rest. It goes like this:

Life is like standing atop a mountain,admiring the scenery.
U take great pains trying to reach the peak to catch a glimpse of the beautiful scenery...

U love the gorgeous sight in front of u ...but can it ever yours ?

True, true..

* * *

2006-03-26T23:25:00.000-08:00

Haiz.. Bad news today. I heard from C.K. today that SAS has lost their rugby match to ACS ( Barker ), even before they managed to reach the Finals. This is real bad..considering that my ex-school had won the championships for the past few years. Yet, this trend has just been broken by my school juniors. I am so disappointed with them. I was expecting to share the glorious moment of the championship victory with them, but this dream has been shattered.
Haha, but this bad thing is balanced by the fact that Jing Hao is going for the flag bearing duties. Poor him. Hereby, I hope that he fails his block test during July..:) Haha, juz kidding.
Tomorrow, I will be starting the new timetable, and this really sux. I gonna stay in school every day real late and this leaves me with no more time in future for my friends. I now have only weekends for my own activities, if my 3 CCAs do not happen to coincide with them.

2006-03-22T17:32:00.000-08:00

Today's lessons were as boring as usual.. We had revision on the things we learnt in the 1st 3 months... I wonder when can we have our new lessons started??

2006-03-22T01:37:00.000-08:00

Today I listened to the new albums of Jay Chou and Lin Jun Jie.
Both their new albums ROX!!
But I think I like the JJ Lin one more
Perhaps he was from SAJC, that's why I am biased..
I really feel proud of him..hopefully I will be as successful as him.
Remember my PE teacher, Mr Isaac Lim from Cj telling us this:
There are actually only 2 deadly diseases in this world. One of which is LAZINESS.
I should really start working hard.

Today my cg chose the class committee..
i did not volunteer for any positions and me sway sway kena the Flag-bearing duties during the SYF opening ceremony..
Shit..
have to go 4 thousands of rehearsals under the hot sun and for 5 hours..
One word to describe it : CRAZY

I am currently stuck at my song.. I lack some resources.. hopefully i can find them.

2006-03-22T01:25:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody. I am back to my blog. I had not have enough time the past few days, so I could not come and update…haha.. I apologize for that. And by the way, I know the looks of my blog seems a bit boring.. but I really do not have the time to change my background. So, haha..if anybody’s willing to do it for me I do not really mind.
Just a short update on yesterday. I went back to Catholic Junior College yesterday, together with Ezekiel and Harish. We reached the school at around 2pm, if I did not remember wrongly, and gained entry into the school on the pretext of having a Maths Competition. Haha, thank goodness the admin staff did not smell a rat, otherwise it would have been a wasted trip. Then we went to find our ex-class immediately. T19 has become T27, and their classroom has moved down to a lower floor. Great for them...:) It was great when they cheered upon seeing us outside their classroom. My ex-classmates were having Econs at that time, and Mdm Indra, fortunately, could still recognize us!! Hehe.. I was so surprised. Mdm Indra was magnanimous enough to allow her last 10 minutes of her lesson to be spent for us to talk. Thanks, Mdm Indra! You are a great tutor!
My classmates look great in their new CJC uniform, but, I think it still depends on who is wearing it. And their u seems a bit weird, they do not have a belt for the guys. Yong Xian complained to us about that. Then, they had GP lecture, so we could not stay together anymore as they had to go to the LT. Meanwhile the three of us went to walk around the school, and at the same time, find our ex-tutors and lecturers. Unfortunately, we couldn’t find them. But I managed to see Kenneth from the Shooting Club. Haha, he could still remember me. Then, we went to the café to have our lunch. I had ‘egg-to-order’, and sadly, they had replaced my beloved hotdog with the some little chicken pieces. We waited for a while before going back to find our class. During which, the O.M. of the school saw us and asked us where did we come from. I had almost said that we were from other schools, which is actually quite rude to the O.M., when Harish told him that we were here for the Maths Competition. Luckily we got off. This O.M of the school ended off by saying some rubbish, saying we must communicate with our parents and blah blah blah.. Weird guy.
We then went to have the GP tutorial with our ex-class, courtesy of their new GP tutor, Mr Yeo. Then they had their PE lesson which was the last lesson of the day. Initially I wanted to join them in the PE lesson, but upon knowing that they still do not have a confirmed PE teacher, I backed out, just in case this teacher ask us to do 2.4km run..haha..bloody slacker.. Finally, when we had nothing else to do we bade farewell to our class. Before we left, we left a note for Ms Lim, saying:
Hello Ms Lim, We Were Here =>
Ezekiel
Charlie
Harish
But YOU were not here...:
THANK YOU!!
Well, hopefully she sees that and appreciates our visit to the school.
Also, my civics group organized an outing yesterday to the movies but I did not go as I had to go CJ.. They told me that since I am out of CJ I should forget about them.. but, is this the way to treat our friendship?? Does it mean that IF I WERE TO LEAVE MY HOUSE, I SHOULD FORGET ABOUT MY FAMILY?? Does it mean that if I leave SA I should forget about my classmates and my friends over there??
Anyway, my C.G. gonna have another outing on next Monday, and I have not yet decided whether to go for it.

2006-03-16T20:01:00.000-08:00

today's sort of boring

not much to say for today.

went to SAJC today and got reprimanded by the O.M. for coming in slippers

but me managed to 'er hem' him and made him speechless

haha..

didn't see much over dere

den toked to Vic from CJ

Haiz... still the same old him..

in fact, when i am typing this i am still toking to him

my song is still halfway done

unfortunately i am lacking of sumthing

A songwriting tool

gonna ask around haha

Btw

sadly many of my friends could not make it to SA through appeal

haiz

anyway gotta go

' I can accept failure... but I cant accept not trying' ~ Michael Jordan

Perhaps my friends follow that

A very valuable virtue

All the best to all reading this blog

++ ~Bye Bye~ ++

2006-03-16T02:26:00.000-08:00

Hello!! My name is C.Y., and I am not going to fully reveal my name to everyone as this will cause me to endanger my LIFE. You see, I am a very important person in my hometown, and any information leaking out will send people to assassinate me..:)
Well, as important as I can be, I am still an ordinary student from SAJC.. I had just taken my O’ levels last year and had performed slightly better then the grades I had for my prelims… I think I have students of RI, RGS and some other better schools to thank for… You know, having through-train is not only beneficial to those elite students, but also those still taking their O’s… I think it really lowered the national average…and blah blah blah.. You know what I mean.
Er, back to my self introduction. Haha.. sorry for digressing… (Again, I have my classmates from CJC to thank for. They taught me how to digress during lessons) Okie. I live in St Cornell Road, and fortunately not everyone knows where the hell this place is in Singapore. Eh.. I joined the NPCC in my secondary school and other than this, I have also represented my country in fencing competitions, winning several gold medals. Just like any typical student, I took my O’ levels and proceeded to JC.
Unfortunately, my prelim results were quite bad and I kena posted to Catholic JC.. It was so ridiculous, when SAJC ( which is my dream JC ) is so f***ing near my house and I have to travel all the way to CJC. It seems a waste of time and money to be posted there. Moreover, CJC seemed to me like a neighbourhood school, and I thought that going to that school will mean a dead end for me in my pursue of my studies…haha.
But then, what I experienced over there in CJC was completely different. It was very flexible in its teaching and I liked it very much. The people over there were even better. The teachers were friendly, approachable and the students were of the same kind. Anyway, I was really happy in CJC in my first 3 months. Actually I didn’t realize that until I left CJC for SA. I had always thought that life would be better in SA. Neither did I know that I have started to love everything over there.
Oh well.. then I was posted to SAJC. I had thought that going there would help to bring some colours into my life, but so far I think I have been proven the otherwise. You know, I had also thought that 2 months of separation from my SA secondary friends would help to bring us closer when we meet the next time. Sadly, I was proven wrong.
Now, over at SA, I feel ignored by my sec school friends. They seemed to have forged a stronger friendship with the other people from the other school within the 2 months. I remember when I was in sec school with the same people, I could still feel a sense of homeliness, this spirit of SAS… but it seemed completely diiferent. Those who studied in SAJC for the 1st 3 months may disagree, but is it really possible for someone who has stayed in the same place to really, see the changes the environment has undertaken?? I just had this recent talk with another SAS student. He as my classmate and just like me, he was posted to other JCs. He related to me this similar kind of experience when the whole class of our sec school went for this BBQ gathering recently. Everyone seemed to be concerned about their FIRST THREE MONTHS, and having nuts about their old friends. To here, I really wonder. Do real friendships really exists in this world? Perhaps I am just getting a bit emotional. Perhaps that’s just how the world goes nowadays.
Alright.. let’s not talk about this anymore. By the way, all this still did not spoil my mood for SA orientation. But…SA orientation was still a bit boring. I thing orientation at CJ was much better. Dancing was the same item in both JCs, but it was a bit short in SA. In CJ we had danced for a continuous 6 minutes, but in SA, we had this stupid and silly chicken dance, Indie hop and some other weird stuff.. Thing should be some sort of rain dance?? Wadever.. I dun noe.. My OG was quite okie, but they were uninitiative. Anyway I also lahz.. I admit it myself. And also, haha, I got to meet my huge comrade’s crush which happened during his first three months in SA. I was in the same OG as her. She is sort of those people whom u will learn to love her..haha, in short she is lovable. Too bad I did not really get to talk to her and she is now allocated to another C.G., otherwise my heart meter would definitely rise too. Here is a brief description of her:

Name: Almost similar to my name
(Cant say, violation of rules, as you know, I am high risk
people)
Class: Cant say too as it can be checked. But..science stream
Age : 16+
Height: Think she should be the tallest girl in my OG
Features: Long hair, 1 pair of eyes, eyebrow, ears, a mouth and a
nose. Fair skin. Basically quite pretty lahz. But I have
seen better ones.
Sec School: One of those which produced a top student.

Haha.. perhaps you know her, perhaps you do not. The person is up for you to guess. People close to me should know who this is. Anyway I think she has got a fairly high chance of reading this blog, and to this person: I REALLY MEANT WHAT I SAID.
I am not afraid of saying what I have in mind.
Well. I think that should be all for my entry. I have to go now coz I have to get on with my Air rifle club proposal and gonna write a song now for a competition.

May The Peace of the Lord Be Always With You
(though I am not a Christian)